Friday, June 13
Nights of tearing ♥
Haven't been using a blogskin's layout for ages.
I'm really lazy to get the photos & edit them to suit my layout.
So here's it, a change, hope for a better one. (:
& I was so frustrated & confused just now that I really had the urge to change a new layout to ease myself (:
Looking at the old one makes me feel sick. (I am sick, really)
It's not like I've forgotten the old when the new comes or anything like that.
The thing is, the old one reminds me of all the unhappy stories told.
I'm not one to always hold on to the past, I'm not one who will keep weeping & ranting over what's already happened, & cannot be undone.
But I'm really not one who can forget unhappiness easily.I try all ways & means to not be reminded of the sad memories, of the unhappy happenings.
But it all just keep coming back to me. Everywhere I turn to, every little thing reminds me of it.
I've fret over the problem enough & I just wish everything's over & done with fast.
I pray, I really pray.May a new layout bring me a brighter tomorrow :DAlrights, away with all the emo shit.
I'm feeling better looking at a new fresh sheet of layout. :D
This is only temporary because I still want my layout to be up soon.
Anways, I don't know if this site of mine is private/trustworthy anymore.
I'm not saying that people are invading my privacy, because I know very well my blog is opened to all.
The thing is, I don't know if writing all the happenings here would make me feel any better, or am I just looking for someone/something to vent my sorrows on.
& I totally agree with Min,
"
Now that I have a longer MSN list but fewer people to talk to, more hi-bye friends(oh the superficialness) and less of close friends in which you can spill your heart to"
True enough.
Who can I spill my heart out to now?
& Who will be the willing one?
When I'm feeling all alone, who'll be willing to step forward & stand by me to chase the loneliness away?
Who'll be the one to lend a shoulder/a helping hand when situations arises?
I'm sorry I've been emo-ing alot in the late entries.
I just want to find my optimistic old self back & chase this sorrowful-not-pityful woman away.P.S. Friends who want to meet me out, give me some time. I'm a little hard up now due to a long story. But contact me! I'll find time to meet up soon. (:I really will. Cause there's too many friendships lost due to A'levels.You're a carousel, you're a wishing well,
And you light me up, when you ring my bell.
