Saturday, July 19
Pandora clove ♥
Haven't been touching this for like quite a few days? (:
Been busy staying back in pathetic school everyday till like 9.30PM to mug & mug & mug. HAHA
ASP ends around 4.30 or 5 & automatically proceeds to library for mugging wih MIN/ELAINE.
Well I admit that studying for 6hrs a day didn't really get me anywhere, just the same for the others too. It's like the
"rate of reaction is very very slow, or no reaction at all". HAHAHA
But nevertheless, it's still much better than me rotting at home daily through sleep/TV-ing/eat. Or worse still, go hang out & all. I spend both time & moneh. ):
Yeapps. So anways, yesterday's mugging was a torture. A real torture.
Started off during Chem lecture I supposed.
No one to blame. I just couldn't get through myself.
Min & Elaine really tried their best to help me on organic chem,
& I really am very thankful I still have them around! But I just couldn't help myself anymore.
P.S. I wasn't angry or anything when you all spoke about taking my answer away! (Just in case you all get pissed off by my emo-ness yest. night) I was just very, very dissapointed with myself. Hahaha. I feel like a useless fool & all because I really get all the headache with org. chem. I just totally gave up on myself looking at the four questions. I don't feel like using my brain cells, I don't like understanding anything,
all of a sudden.
I know it was my fault, that I said I didn't want to hear anything. I really know & I'm really sorry about it alrights. I know I was stubborn on my part. But it was really difficult to try to get past myself. Without the answers there I have no idea where to head to & no clue as to where the light is in my pitch darkness then. Haha.
But I am still really very glad that Elaine/Min were there. They really forced me to achieve something on my own, although I didn't in the end, but still, a good start for learning org. chem, the killer.
So when they went to the toilet, I throw away my stubborness with
tears & eventually try to bring myself back on the track. (:
When they are back, I feel much, much better, at least there's someone to help & pull me out of the darkness.
At least I knew, at that moment that I still have someone to rely on. Thanks girlfriends. (:
Love a trillion times! :D& I guess Min really could tell the depressed/giving up look on my face that I really don't feel like seeing anymore of the C double/single bonds & halogenoalkanes & carbonyl compounds & especially the 4 ASP questions. HAHA.
I confess, yes I do.
The reason why I decided to include this part here is to really express my many thanks & love to DMNVs :D
I wouldn't know where I am now if it wasn't for them. Hahaha. It isn't easy to survive in this class, (full of politics which no one is willing/able to solve) So I'm really glad I still have friends to count/trust on when the hard times hit me bad. (:
I love you girls! :DAlrights, enough of yesterday's rants, (:
Queensway-ed today & bought some very nice kuehs home.
Hahaha. I don't really eat kueh but I bought them for my family to eat anways.
& as I had expected the outcome to be, still very disappointing.
I know - would nag like shit & I know - won't even appreciate one bit.
I know, I know before hand, before I decided to buy them. But I still bought them in the end.
Whatever all the good thoughts were for :/ Hahaha
& we practically just wandered around, went to collect jersey & lots of embarassing events happened on the way & today was just wonderful. :D
Not much of such experiences in the near future anymore so I shall/will treasure each & every bit of it to the fullest xD
* Love test
(Inside joke)Quite a long & boring entry already, so off I go! Catching HOG time! I'm gonna finish it all today! (Or at least by this week!) Hahaha. I don't want to be finishing it after TV does! LOL. Like so slow pok you know you know. xD HAHA
TTFN! Love,
Tears were in the eyes,
Hold them back no matter what.
