Monday, October 25
Trying to find myself ♥
I'm really glad things have gone so much better.
I lost myself a little way back, but I'm fortunate to have found myself back.
Although I'm not sure if everything is back to normal.
At times, I still feel sad over the fact that we are no longer talking.
It's not normal. It's like we really haven't talked for so long.
Not even a hi or bye, not even a how are you today or are you fine.
It's awkward, and you prolly don't want to be making the conversation anways.
I still feel sad now that we seem like no longer friends.
But I'll look on the positive side.
I'll be happy because I can choose to be happy.
Once in awhile, I'll reflect on myself. I'll be a little truthful to myself
& I'll let myself feel sad and cry.
But after that is done, I will remind myself to stay happy.
To feel fortunate that at least things dint go as bad as it could have.
At least we're still stranger, friend.
No matter what, when you need me to be there, I'll promise that you can depend on me.
I may not be the best person to look for, I may not be able to solve all of your problems, but I WILL be there. I WILL be someone you can depend on.
I don't ask that you do the same for me, just let me be there for you.
That's all I'll ever ask for.
& I do hope, that one day, you'll truly forgive me, & we'll be the close friend that we were as before. Because then, I'll be truly happy.
