Monday, December 31
The end of 2012 is the start of 2013 ♥
I'm not exactly the type to summarize the events that I went through for the past year. But while I'm on this slow, crawling train towards Clarke Quay to meet my darlings for countdown to 2013, I thought, might as well.
So if I were to summarize 2012, it was good. Not bad, not awesome.
I had some really strong guts at the start of the year to step up & become the OIC for SMUX Camp 2012. I had been dying to join the Smux camp committee but I never thought I'd have the courage & guts to go for OIC. Well I did, & I was glad I did. I didn't want my 4 years in SMU to end with no achievement. I may have been an active member of the Skating Team but I still felt like my uni life was really boring. Like there wasn't any achievements that I can be proud of.
Talking about Smux camp, although I was glad it turned out a great success, but I still have my regrets, for I had not been a good leader. I had not bonded my team like I thought I would. & after Smux Camp ended, I was further apart from Smux than I ever was. (partly due to FYP)
& yes FYP started off really great, I loved the team & I put in as much effort as I did when running Smux Camp. But as the sem started, everything start tumbling down as school work got heavier & misunderstandings snowballed. No matter how much i wanted to be the middle man & help to resolve the misunderstandings, it was useless. & it went to the supervisor in the end. The only thing I was glad or can be glad about is that we all put in our best for the last lap & we gave ourselves the reward we deserved.
FYP also made me think twice about my passion for design, so did Advertising. It was one module which brought down all the optimism in me. Its so demoralizing & upsetting to learn that my capabilities are not just limited, but nowhere even near talent or passion. Until now, I have no idea what my future is gonna look like. What kind of career am I going to embark? Which path am I going to walk down?
That aside, the 2nd half of the year was where all my dear uni friends left sg for their exchange. You can't imagine how much it saddens me to realise that everytime I feel depressed, I have no one to turn to. & it also made me realize that I have been a real terrible friend. That's why I didn't have any friends around me. & I was so ashamed of myself that I don't even have the courage to make up for my misdeeds to my dear friends. Even until today.
Well, at least it's not all bad. 2012 is the year I revived my relationship with my bestfriend. I've neglected him in the past & I'm so sorry. But I'll never do that ever again. He's the only best friend I will ever get for his nature is the purest & kindest on earth. I'm so glad he's here with me throughout the year. :) thanks bestfriend :)
& I was really really happy that I celebrated my darling's birthday & managed to surprise her! :) (really glad I got to talk to her again)
& I managed to see my best girlfriend in Taiwan! <3
No matter what, I'm glad I'm alive & I always feel blessed to have awesome friends around me.
So for my new year resolution, which is not a habit of mine, but I'll do it anyway.
1. Work part time & earn some money
2. Treasure my dear friends & make up to friends I have neglected over the years. I HAVE TO GET THEM BACK.
3. Get a boyfriend. (I mean it)
4. Apply for jobs
5. Find out who I really am.
6. Find out what I really want to do in the future (part of finding a job)
7. Manage my friendships well!!!
8. Don't be as lazy as before!!!
9. Run & slim down
10. Remember my way of living. Treating others the way I want to be treated & not treating others the way I dont want to be treated!
& that's the end of my post :) just nice that I've reached my destination :) 2013 may you be an awesome one! <3
